Highs and Lows

Today was a day with highs and lows...I guess most day are when you think about it.

I was off today and spent the day with Kerre and Jack. We went to a garage sale, took a walk, mowed the grass, watched the new Indiana Jones movie and ate steak for diner. That is a great day.

The low of the day was the mowing of the grass. It was the first time I had mowed since we left Corpus and sold our house. In Corpus, Mowing the grass was when I had time to myself, to work things out and while I was mowing today things really came crashing in hard.

It is frustrating, I thought I had made so much progress and I find myself so angry again. I miss so much...my friends, my house...so many things...

It is hard to think that there is part of my story that I do not, will not, want to share with my son especially when it is the beginning of his story.

What is the next step????