Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Can I deal.....

So, Jack has a problem. He has a condition called Craniosynostosis. It helps to say it out loud. Jack has a problem. We have known about it for about a week and the ramifications are just hitting home.

Basically the plates his skull is made up of are fusing together too quickly. We see a specialist next week and should then know the extent that the fusion has occurred.

The thing that has hit the hardest is that this come just when things were looking up.

It has been a long year and I can deal with getting fired, being lied about and lied too, being abandoned by "friends" and people who I lived life with. I can deal with the unknown as far as jobs go and a place to live. I can deal with broken promises and false assurances. I can deal with being ran off and being misrepresented.

The question is can I deal? Can I deal with my son having surgery on his skull? Can I deal with my wife's broken heart? Can I deal with all of the unknown that is going to come over the next week and month?

There is so much more to be said and I am losing my words. I'm not really looking for any answers or sympathy, I just wanted to say that life really sucks some times.


  1. Brother Aaron,

    I have no answers - but I have immense love and compassion towards you and your family.

    I understand if you don't want to hear anything from me or anybody - I understand if you don't even read this or delete it immediately.

    All I have come to understand is that I don't understand, but God has shown me, proven to me, slapped me upside my head several times over this issue - that He understands. He also knows we often don't know, and that we doubt Him, question Him, become angry with Him, rebuke Him.

    All I know is that He is preparing you, using you, shaping you through this MAJOR terrifying trial in your life for some greater purpose - one you may or may not know or understand for quite awhile if ever. But He will not put you through anything you cannot handle! To answer your question - You can deal! You are an awesome father and husband and your son’s condition is not going to change that.

    Again, I don't know how, I don't know why, but I do know He has not forsaken you, punished you, abandoned you or your family, and that He will provide and get you’ all through this.

    I offer my prayers, my friendship (for whatever that is worth) and anything else I or my family can possibly do for you.

    My sincerest love,


  2. I am so sorry about this news. I will be praying for a good report from the specialist and a full recovery.

  3. yeah, it just does sometimes. things do sometimes get worse and sometimes they don't seem to pass. you guys are not alone though and you are so very loved. people know what is true in their hearts and the Holy Spirit knows and shares it. how exquisitely perfect that jack has you two - no one else would do.

  4. Please know you are in our prayers! Pam & Harold

  5. We are praying for that sweet boy and his parents. We love you all and are trusting the Lord to take care of you.

  6. we love you. we know your anger is deep and real.

    just know you're loved and I am praying specifically for peace today as you see the specialist.

    Jack needs his mommy and daddy to show him and tell him how faithful their big God is. I'm praying for that strength. I've seen it in you. I'm praying.

  7. Hey Aaron and Kerre! I don't know if ya'll remember me but I attend Oso Creek with my husband Ben and two little ones Riley and Luke. Aaron, you were the first and I think only person who reached out to me the very first day and made us feel so welcome. Thank you for being who you are. I honestly don't know what transpired or why ya'll aren't here anymore but I wish you the absolute best...and know that no matter what, God does have a plan for us, no matter how much it doesn't make sense. My family is faced with some possible life-changing things right now, so I can just imagine what these next few years will hold. Every day I have to re-commit myself to knowing that He is in control, despite what appears in the natural. I am praying blessings for your family and for little Jack...he is ADORABLE! What a blessing to you both.