Jack's head smells...

...like Jack's head should smell.

Jackson's head has always been my favorite part of him. Even in the beginning when he had a little egg head! Especially the way it smells. Since his surgery three weeks ago it just hasn't been the same. It smelt like a hospital... and then like glue (derma bond--sp?). But today his head smelt sooooo good. His head looks so good and now smells so good too. Like it should!

Jack gets his helmet on Thursday and I have to say that I have a bit of trepidation. For all the normal reasons, yes. (like will it affect his sleep and balance and how will nursing be...) But also for the fact that I'm losing my baby's head. I cried tonight while I was rocking him because I realized I only have one more night after tonight to kiss the top of his head before bedtime for 6 months. I told Aaron that I feel like we are cutting off an appendage or something.

I can't tell you how many pictures there are of me kissing his head or touching his head with my cheek. I sooth him by kissing the top of his head. I rub his head to help him go to sleep. I feel his head with my cheek to see if he's hot and when I whisper that I love him in his ear. I'm going to miss it so much.